It’s a hard lesson to see that when I had $15,000 in debt that I had created it. I tried to blame the government, my parents for not teaching me about money, my partner and everyone I could as long as I didn’t have to look in the mirror.
What I failed to realize is I was an expert at teaching myself how to be in debt. I had created this amazing system to have money be evil, be gone before I could save it and talk about it like I hated it.
And the funny part was I expected to have a different result. Shit I made plenty of it where was it going? Why did all these other people that didn’t work as hard as me have all this nice stuff?
I made an enemy out of money and my system was flawless to keep money far away from me. I read a book called Happy Money by Ken Honda and started to meditate on what relationship system I was creating with money. How I looked at it, how I thought about it and how I spoke about it.
What I saw was that it made complete sense why I was in debt and always had tension towards money……
I thought the more money you had the worse person you became and the more you were a shitty father. So in the end the finger had one way to point, directly at me.
Now there is nothing wrong with having a fucked up relationship with money. The problem comes in when you see what you need to change and how the system is not working and you still choose to live the same system and complain about it.
I dove into my money beliefs, how I talked about money, how I tracked my money and even how when I spent or received money I started to say thank you. Instead of when I spent money going “Shit why are you spending that, you can’t afford that” I shifted to “Thank you for this amazing life where my family is healthy, I have a roof over my head and I can buy my children cool toys they enjoy.”
Assessing what a system is doing in your life and how you are creating results good or bad can be a game changer. Give it a go and take action.
